Here is my story and my journey so far

Posted on: Wed, 08/07/2019 - 12:41pm
spaceman's picture
Joined: 07/02/2019 - 15:02

I wanted to share my journey on how I got here and how anxiety has come on and become such a large part of my life. I used to work a crazy amount of hours...sometimes 12 to 14 hours per day and 7 days per week. I used to also go out a lot after work and have drinks. This was all fine in my 20s and 30s but as I approached my 35th birthday everything changed.

I started getting the worst dizzy spells. There were time where I could not even walk 10 feel without thinking I was going to blackout. Now I have never actually blacked out but the feeling like it is going to happen is almost as bad. Back then I had no idea what was wrong with me. I went to every doctor under the sun and they all said that I was fine but I knew that I wasn't. I then went on to live like this for years and I thought that I might never live a healthy life ever again. This also led to depression as I saw no hope for getting better. A few years after the depression moved into anxiety. I started to live a more healthy lifestyle where I would exercise if I could, eat healthier, drink green juices, etc. My dizziness started to subside but my anxiety really kicked in.

I felt like my anxiety became a product of my dizziness. If I thought I might be getting a dizzy spell then I would suddenly get anxious. My heart would beat really fast, my palms became sweaty and my neck would tighten up. Even though a dizzy spell might not come, just the thought of it caused me to be anxious. This has been happening for the past few years now and I am trying to move past it but it is tough. I just have this automatic reaction of doom and gloom if I think I might get dizzy and black out. I have found a few things that have helped but I know I just need to get to a more zen place in life.

We will see.

Posted on: Thu, 08/08/2019 - 2:44pm
J28's picture
Joined: 08/08/2019 - 14:37

Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds like you have had a long and rough ride. But as far as I can tell you have had some things that have helped you which is really great and positive. All we need is a little bit of hope and that goes a long way.

Posted on: Thu, 08/08/2019 - 3:00pm
gryffin's picture
Joined: 08/08/2019 - 14:55

Thanks for sharing spaceman. Wishing you all the light in the world.

Posted on: Fri, 08/09/2019 - 11:33am
MillieM's picture
Joined: 08/08/2019 - 15:25

Spaceman, you have really had quick a journey but you are so strong for getting to where you are now. You should be really proud of yourself, as it takes a lot of inner strength to pull through such a difficult time. Being zen and staying zen it truly healing. Meditation has helped me so much and I know that I need to do a lot more of it but I am trying to do it when I can. Also, eliminating as much stress as possible is key.

Posted on: Mon, 08/12/2019 - 3:46pm
spaceman's picture
Joined: 07/02/2019 - 15:02

Thank you everyone for the kind words. It helps to know someone is listening:)

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